Rise Once Again..

I Might be Fallen

I Might Bleed

I Might Lay a Bit

Let it Be

I am Falling to 

          Rise Once Again....

We are Just Friends

उसकी खूबसूरती पे किताब लिख दू

उसके लिए चाँद तारे तोड़ लाता

सारी  फिज़ाओं का रूख मोड़ देता 

पर उसने तो कहा We are just Friends !

My First Crush in Office

Yea !! how it feels when you enter in the first day office and see a beautiful American girl (not our usual Indian girl J) wearing pretty salwar kameez… Isn’t it amazing ??? yes for me it is. She was looking so sweet and innocent one can’t even think of it. I still remember how much amazed I was while looking at her.
Actually this is how it goes….It was my first day at production after we completed training in Mysore and got posting in Bangalore. Initially I was not happy with the posting as I was expecting Pune because its near to my place. But I know I need to work with that for initial years of my life. Somehow group of our friends who got the same posting in same department reached the place where we were supposed to report. And it was the time when I saw her, Michelle(name changed, as I like this name very much) . At the first I was not able to see her face clearly as she was sitting in the cubicle and her somewhat curly hairs covering her face. But seeing an American in d department was quite amazed… yea I know the typical Indian staring the foreigner women and all that…but can’t help with that . From that time I just wanted to talk with her so desperately but could not get a chance as she was working in the other project and I was on bench…even her cubicle was far away from me but not that much far that I can’t have look over her…. I can see her face I just need to stand up  Initially going through her cubicle I never miss the chance to have a look at her or to find out what she is doing. Once I even saw curiously at her desktop what if she is doing ….pretty girl was making test cases in the excel sheet….hardworking girl !!!
Later on I came to know that she was a intern like me  . Infosys used to enroll international students as a intern batch and later on they started with the Indians also (like me). Somehow during those days I always wanted to talk to her but could not dare to. Just kept on waiting for the chance that someday will meet in the coffee room and will start the conversation but……
It was not like that we didn’t met in coffee room but it was that we were not alone someone use to be present there for us to disturb  either my friends or some crap of our department !! Actually one of my friend used to give me a company in staring her. We both used to like her. I ping my friend as soon as she leaves for the coffee and we used to rush like a hell. I know I didn’t talked to her but somehow that makes me very excited just looking at her and enjoying, Someone might think me as a freak but still I loved that very much.
But as usual god have decided something else for me !! One day in the morning I had just logged my system and she was slowly approaching towards me, not just me !! she was distributing the chocolates to everyone while approaching towards me. I was very excited and thought she might be having birthday and in the mind I was just thinking about the lines to impress her out. All of a sudden she came to the cubicle back to me and offered the chocolates over there, where my another friend was sitting and . While taking the chocolates he asked her out for the occasion. I just quoted in my mind how dumb “how dumb he was ! it was her birthday why don’t he just enjoy the chocolates..”
Actually it was not so  .. Yes time for him to call me a dumbo !! Well she told him in her sweet American accent “Today is my last day in the office. ” “Ohh shit.. what she speaking !! she got my nerves so much out of sense. Oh god I hope she is not serious ! Is she going to leave the company ?? Is she changing the department?? Is she shifting back to main campus ?? “ Likewise thousands of questions flickered in my mind. And she continued “I am distributing the chocolates in the office so that everyone remembers me”. Picking up the chocolate my friend asked her if she is going to come back. Lucky on my side she replied that she really wants to join the company again after completing her studies. As I said earlier she was intern, once she is done with her studies she will join the company.
After which she stood beside me offering me chocolates. With utmost pain I picked the chocolate and as knowing my curious face she was about to start with the explanation I told her “yea I heard that. . .Best of luck.” I was really dumbo !! I should have talked to her more ! but I knew I could not, out of all the despair.  That was the day I experienced very low, spending my almost day thinking about her what if she had talked to me just once before that. Another disappointment on my side was that we never had a chance to talk but only on the day when she was about to leave to her country. No option was left for me else to wait for her to return from Bulgaria.

Thank you for smoking

Title seems to be bit strange , how can one thank for smoking ??? actually who can thank you for smoking ? must be die hard addictor of smoking or may be a marketing manager of some cigarette company. Well i am none of them.

It’s the movie I saw in which our hero, Nick Naylor is a chief spokesperson for the lobby of academy of tobacco studies. He tries his time on debate on the Right of smokers. Interestingly, in the debate members are, our hero who is chief spokesperson on behalf of tobacco lobby , 12 year old Robin suffering from cancer, human rights representative and mother of child. So many people to support against smoking and only one person to defend to the right of smokers !!! I feel pity on him !! Well still he is able to almost win the debate by saying “I earn a living for myself working for the organization that kill 1000 humans a day and we have spent millions of dollars to prove that cigarettes are not addictive !” Host asked him “How on earth would Big Tobacco profit off of the loss of the loss of this young man?” and reply was “I hate to think in such callous terms, but if anything we'd be losing a customer. It's not only our hope, it's in our best interests to keep Robin alive and smoking.”

Well I am not writing here about the right of smoking or in support of smoking but I have an objection for the common mindsets of the people so called good people or anti-smoker’s. who just think they are having the separate religion having much higher level than the people who are smoking. They just look at the people who are smoking with such a grin that separates them from smokers. Especially the girls who really think that the boy who is smoking is not worth of any relationship with her and it’s better to avoid them. Until they don’t know that your friend is smoking they are very good friend of yours but as soon as they come to know about it, something changes !! I don’t know what changes !! person remains the same. Does the nature of person you know changes, Just because he is smoking ?? Yes, In some part there is just a concern from such people that their dear ones should leave smoking. But most of the time there is feeling of hatred , which they do not show it really but keeps on proving to you all the time. What’s the problem if person smokes once in a day or 2-3 times in a week. I really don’t find anything wrong if person smoking just for leisure. Yes, but I do oppose the frequent smoking habit. I always remember my father use to say to me all the time “never get slave of anyone either it’s a person or a thing.”
Sometimes it’s just a feeling to smoke when you people around you are smoking, or it may be weather or in most of the cases it’s a mood. What is the big deal if person smoke’s just for his leisure. Anyways I just want people to stop the critics and the typical absurd mindsets for the smokers as it do not change what the person really is.

P.S : Purely my views and opinion.